Experience an inside look into a therapy session with a person diagnosed with schizophrenia.
Dear Dr F., my psychiatrist, and Dr K, my cognitive behavioral psychologist:
I think this might be worth taking a look at.
REFLECTIONS ON MENTAL ILLNESS HD (2015)
Maureen, my wife, commented after seeing it on Facebook:
Maureen Cooke-Harnisch: This was illuminating. And brave. Very brave.
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Good day to my viewers. This podcast episode is called Reflections on Mental Health Recovery or Reflections on Mental Illness. Thank you, to my psychologist David and my beautiful wife Maureen for being there. Regarding my cognitive behavioral therapist, David's review of our therapy session I write to my wife and include this at the beginning of the podcast as a text to speech file, which introduces and perhaps describes the broadcast at hand, which is now on iTunes: ' Dear Maureen: From David's Review: [the very last line] he wrote, "I think you're doing a great job and want to stress the importance of making sure you are relaxing, and not taking on things too intensely!" And so, honey, can you see? That is definitely what has been going on recently from my perspective as well, and also how I started my new day today, the following morning after, on Friday, June 12, 2015, at 2:00 AM, as I text message you, my wife, as you sleep in. However, I must begin with a fresh start, right now. It is way too much for me otherwise, and far too intense. I can now really begin to see why and how others are often off put by what they call my intensity, or my intense personality, a great deal of the time. This is what I have learned most from this therapy session and its recording. To my love, I may need or ask for your help with this between my caregiver concerns, as it affected our subsequent visit to the veterinarian, and my poor sleep last night. Also, seeing the podcast, which follows. In one word, I would certainly describe my presentation as far too "intense," no wonder why I broke down in tears and mental over stimuli and subsequent burnout at the vet's office where I even found myself having to leave while my little kitten, Georgie, was still in there and with no medical issues. Thank you, honey. I'm on a "time out," in general for myself, and my own well being right now from rushing for tickets to the news of the new 2015 Duran Duran Music Concert and Tour and so forth, I have many further things to say otherwise, but, no, I am not willing to start my day that way, it is my life and yesterday did me in, I must say. I found it evident in this recording, though it had likely begun prior and after all, I put a great deal of mental work into my recovery likely too much at once at times, at times, like this, too much pressure, as I say into my recovering from severe mental illness. The podcast is now available to the public this morning. With Love, from Jonathan Postscript: To my wife, good luck sleeping in after you attended last night's writing group. Please let me know when you are awake if you remember to! And have a good morning. It is just you and me, in our home, together this weekend at last and we can both relax! Literally, just relax, if we choose to start today, with no kids in the house and so forth. I only slept 4 hours last night. Thank you and goodbye for now.
My therapist wrote his review of the following therapy session:
“Hi Jonathan, You had mentioned breaking your symptoms up into 3 general categories: (1) Thought disorder (schizophrenia), (2) Mood disorder (Bipolar), and (3) Personality disorder.
It sounds like things worked out well with your caregiver. I think you're doing a wonderful job putting skills to use. I think it's just tough to do because it goes against our natural impulses! The mindfulness and other skills in your mental toolbox aren't natural. But it's probably the healthiest path. I do feel confident that by using the things we talk about, you will have a better quality of life and more peace.
One of the things I jotted down was that: we can't chase people down all the time for doing insensitive things. It happens too often, even with people we're close to. We have to pick our battles, and it's best to save the battles for true manipulation or advantage-taking situations.
Jonathan, you mentioned driving more and taking the risk that a police car may be behind you. I think that type of exposure exercise is great!
You checked with me to see when cognitive therapy should be used, and I stressed that you should only use it when you're distressed. It's labor-intensive, and you don't want to wear yourself out.
I think you're doing a great job and want to stress the importance of making sure you are relaxed and not taking on things too intensely!”
— David, Cognitive Behavioral Therapist
Here comes the podcast, everyone, a glimpse into my life and my recovery!
From Your Friend, Mental Health Advocate | Schizophrenia Spectrum | Author | Artist | Blogger | Podcast Host | Patent Holder | Hedge Fund Manager | Film & TV Producer | Musician, Jonathan Harnisch on Schizophrenia Raw