Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for thirty years. And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it's what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes, or it seems to, but it doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel whole, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry, and the truth is I feel so sad, and the truth is I've felt so hurt for so long and for just as long I've been pretending I'm OK, just to get along, just for, I don't know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own.
I've always been someone who looks "too deep" into something or someone. That's because I realized from a young age that there's "always more than meets the eye."
I have schizophrenia. This video is an excellent baseline for understanding what's going on. If I were to add something I'd add the less obvious symptoms of delusions such as being paranoid of people (which people can relate to) as well as a feeling of un-realness you can occasionally experience without actually hallucinating. This crash course presents itself in an incredibly informative short video, but the host or narrator or lecturer speaks abnormally fast, making it almost impossible to keep on track. This narrator can educate someone more in 11 minutes than a lecturer does in at least several hours. Again I was saddened to take notice that depersonalization and derealization (a feeling that one's surroundings are not real, especially as a symptom of mental disturbance) had not been reported or detailed within the dissociative disorders section. Then again the narrator did say "more rare and elusive" when it came to that part. It's disheartening how people romanticize Syd Barrett's illness. Pink Floyd are constantly saying how much they can't stand those kinds of individuals saying disgusting things about how "cool" it is. I hope you take the time to watch this short video.
Acknowledging Plagiarism Two Months Before Publication Of When We Were Invincible By Jonathan Harnisch
“Sometimes, You need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and who you want to be.”
I felt coerced ...
I felt coerced ... confessing, apologizing and rebuilding given I confessed in this podcast episode on October 24, 2015, with a publication date of the novel on December 25, 2015.
My wife, Maureen, texted me in response that due to my living with schizoaffective disorder, which is a type of schizophrenia, resulting in severe cognitive impairment," Everything is fine externally. This is an internal problem." — Maureen Cooke-Harnisch
-- Jonathan Harnisch