Update from My Psychologist:
Hey, Jonathan- I hope you're feeling well today...
As of Tues, you reported having gone down to a total of 1.0mg of Klonopin per day. I explained that this could be helpful is many ways: Higher doses (1) run a greater risk of depression symptoms, (2) cognitive problems (memory, concentration, etc.), (3) you will be less tolerant of the benzos, & (4) less risk of pulmonary problems when you sleep. There are probably other benefits that I can't recall at this point! Remember- it's not all-or-nothing, so even if you're not off the med completely- 1.0mg is a lot healthier than 4.0mg per day! (Of course getting off of it completely is ideal, though.)
You said something that was interesting regarding our conversation about perceptions. You stated, "I'm a valuable commodity." I thought it was telling that you would say that- as opposed to something like, "People care about me." To me, that would influence your belief about why people would help you and work with you: That it must be 100% a benefit to them- and 0% altruism. (Not to say that it's 100% altruistic either!) But I would imagine believing that oneself was a "commodity" must color your view of others' behaviors.
You also thought that the THC might make your tics worse. That makes complete sense. My understanding is that THC raises dopamine levels- and increased dopamine leads to increase muscle contraction, and thus could worsen motor tics. Not to say that this would eliminate the usefulness of the med marijuana- but you may want to minimize the levels of THC and maximize the CBD- so that you get the cognitive and emotional benefits without the tic exacerbation side effects.